Chapter 2
Even his voice was exactly the same as yesterday. Not the slightest trace of sleepiness.
So he really was awake. Litia bit her lip.
The moment her gaze dropped even slightly, her face burst into flames. Like a thief caught while trying to flee, she clamped her mouth shut, avoided his eyes, and tugged the blanket up to cover herself.
Maybe last night wouldâve been different, but rubbing bare skin together while fully soberâafter the alcohol had completely worn offâwas borderline madness for Litia.
âUmâŠâ
Yet the man, as if he felt no embarrassment at all, tilted his head and persistently followed her gaze.
âHm? What is it? Say it.â
Pressed by him, Litia gave up trying to escape. She closed her eyes and forced her mouth open.
ââŠYouâre too close. Could you move back a little?â
Instead of moving away, she heard a low chuckle. When she frowned and opened her eyes again, he was even closerâso close she could feel his breath.
Their noses brushed.
Startled, Litia tried to pull back, but only ended up sinking deeper into the pillow.
ââŠYou told me to come closer yesterday.â
âThat wasâ!â
âWell, youâre not trying to run away, are you? Where were you going?â
ââŠâŠâ
âItâs not because you didnât like it, right? You said you liked me. You probably liked it even more after the second time. What did you say again? Ohâdonât tell me you donât remember?â
At his shameless teasing, Litia abruptly raised her hand and slapped it over his mouth.
âD-donât. Stop.â
Because all of last nightâs memories had come rushing backâespecially what that âsecond timeâ meant. Saying he was handsome, telling him to come closer, babbling about his lips⊠Even drunk, her mouth had been far too loose.
The man chuckled softly.
âMm?â
The vibration of his muffled voice tickled her palm. Squirming at the sensation, Litia still refused to move her hand.
âI said donât talk!â
She shouted while covering his mouth. This wasnât how things were supposed to go. In an instant, all her plans had gone completely off track.
She really, really hadnât meant for this to happenâŠ
Litia squeezed her eyes shut.
The day she first opened her eyes in this body came back to her.
Chapter 1: Litia, the Doormat Noble Lady
Inside the banquet hall.
âThat dress really doesnât suit you, Lady Mont.â
Splash.
Wine poured from her chest down to the hem of her dress, soaking it in an ugly stain. Soon she could even feel it dampening her undergarments. Laughter erupted from all around.
ââŠL-Lady Cavendish.â
Litiaâs voice trembled weakly. Tears welled in her eyes, ready to spill at any moment.
Roa Cavendish widened her eyes.
âOh my, why are you crying? I was only trying to help you dress more beautifully. I was helping you, really⊠Shouldnât you want to look your best for His Highness the Crown Prince? Donât you think you look much better now?â
ââŠâŠâ
âOh dear, here we go again.â
âShe really canât stand Lady Mont, can she?â
âIsnât it strange that Lady Mont keeps letting it happen? Maybe she actually enjoys it?â
Amid the snickering laughter, Litia lowered her head. If only she could disappear like thisâŠ
If not for the imperial invitation, she would have avoided every banquet altogether. She had come today praying that things would pass quietly, but it looked like she would leave without even entering the hallâwithout ever meeting the Crown Prince.
Litia and the Crown Prince were childhood friends. She had hoped to talk with him, even briefly, thinking it might ease her stifled heart. But once again, this group stood in her way.
Roa Cavendish, the cherished daughter of the Marquis of Cavendish and leader of a clique among noble ladies in the capital, saw Litia as a thorn in her side.
The primary reason was Litiaâs appearanceâso sacred and beautiful that rumors claimed she had been born blessed by the gods. The second was her family.
House Mont was one of the wealthiest in the empire, owning vast territories and producing more Saintesses than any other family. It stood at the very top. The empireâs only ducal house, with a beloved only daughterâand on top of that, rumors of her closeness to the Crown Prince.
Yet Litia herself was frailer than a flower grown in a greenhouse. That contrast made her all the more intolerable.
At first, the harassment had been subtleâtoo discreet to draw attention. The Mont family was too powerful to provoke openly.
But once Roa realized that Litia hid everything even from her own family, the bullying escalated. Soon it became bold enough for other noble ladies to notice.
Once again, Litia chose not to fight. She gave up.
ââŠI-I think I should go home.â
âMy lady, donât go. We hardly ever see each otherâwouldnât it be a shame to leave already?â
Laughing brightly, Roa pushed Litia to the brink of tears.
Her goal was simple: make sure Litia never met the Crown Prince today. And it was about to succeed.
âW-well, I suppose thereâs no choiceâŠâ
Before long, a tear slipped from Litiaâs eye. Her slender shoulders shook helplessly.
âReally? How unfortunate. Next time, Iâll be sure to help you properly, all right?â
âY-yes. I-Iâm sorry about today.â
Laughter rang out again. Roa remained smug and triumphant.
Unable to endure it any longer, Litia bowed her head and fled the scene.
That night, she threw herself into the lake.
And nowâ
The one who had opened her eyes in this body was Yoo Jimin, who had just ended her short life.
Yoo Jimin, age 24.
After becoming an adult, she had spent her entire life unable to leave the hospital room.
As her illness worsened day by day and her body deteriorated beyond saving, she finally closed her eyes, thinking it was time to be freed from the pain.
When she opened them again, she found herself in a body that wasnât her own.
And of all people, it belonged to a character from the novel she had been reading just before she died.
Out of countless characters, she had become Litiaâthe pitiful noble lady who was pushed around from all sides and died miserably before the real protagonist even appeared.
âSheâs awake!â
The moment she opened her eyes, a shrill cry rang out, throwing the entire estate into chaos.
ââŠHaâŠâ
After the commotion finally settled, Jimin stared into the mirror and raised a hand to her cheek. She had sent everyone away, claiming her head hurtâbut she had no idea what to do with this confusion.
Her silver hair was unbelievably soft, slipping through her fingers and cascading over her shoulders no matter how many times she brushed it back.
A face that could only be described as pure and beautiful.
And her eyesâicy blue, like the heart of the Mediterranean Sea.
Jimin had seen this description recently.
In the book sheâd read before her death.
It was something her friend had given her, desperately hoping to spark her will to live. She had read it out of gratitude, never imagining it would grant her a new life.
If she remembered correctly, Litia was supposed to have drowned in the lake. But for whatever reason, she had been given this second chanceâand she refused to die again.
This healthy body was everything Jimin had ever dreamed of.
ââŠ.â
She didnât want to die again. She didnât want to suffer anymore.
So she decided to fully become Litiaâbut contrary to her hopes for a different life, she found herself confined to her room, unable to take even a single step outside.
Litia Eulunie Bellus Mont.
Even her name, laden with honorifics, showed how many expectations had been placed upon her at birth. But timid and lacking in courage, she had never lived up to them. Those expectations became nothing but crushing pressure.
In the end, that pressure drove her to her death.
Which meant that if Jimin continued like this, her future would be no different.
She needed to learn more about this bodyâabout this life.
If she was going to live, she didnât want to be pushed around. She wanted control. She wanted freedom.
âAhâthe diary!â
As she began to settle in, forgotten details resurfaced.
The original Litia had written a diary every night since childhoodârecording everything she couldnât say aloud, every small success and failure. Unable to express herself openly, she poured her true feelings into its pages.
She had loved pretty notebooks.
Thankfully, because Litia died early in the story, those details had been clearly laid out.
But before she could look for it, someone knocked on the door.
ââŠWho is it?â
Litia hurried to the door.
âLitia. Itâs your father.â
At the deep voice outside, her body stiffened. She recognized himâthe man who had come during the chaos when she first woke up.
The same man who had dismissed all of her attendants.
The memory of that dayâpeople cut down without mercyâflashed vividly through her mind.